Why..

A few days ago I was feeling quite bored and kind of getting a little sick of my appearance so I decided to venture out and dye my hair. I looked at the box, and it said "light brown" it looked like a safe color so I bought it and used it.
And now my hair is turning black.. not just dark brown, its "hey look, Im a goth" black!

So now Im wondering, why am I so concerned with my appearance? Why do I feel the need to look a certain way to validate who I am? What does changing my hair color, or buying new clothes from american eagle, or putting on make up, really do for me?

I know that Im not a total reject, I mean I must have some good qualities, I have good friends, a great boyfriend, kids like me, people talk to me on the street. There must be some "attractive" qualities I possess so that these people like me and want to get to know me and spend time with me.

So why do I feel the need to always improve how I look on the outside?



OK, confession.. as I am rambling on about this, Im anxiously awaiting my hair appointment to go bleach and dye this mess back to my natural color. But I've really begun to think more about what really is important to me in my life, what do I value, what are my priorities?